Being in Phoenix at the AI reminds me of TV Pro in high school and it's really strange. Like when I was getting my school ID, the guys taking the picture and putting it on the computer and shit reminded me of how everyone was in that class. I used to love tv pro but now I dont really remember it very well. It kinda makes me sad. High school is so god damn long ago, two years. I miss being that age, ugh, I really do. Sometimes I wish I hadn't gotten into drugs so I could have maybe enjoyed it further but eh what can you do. I don't even see the people I liked in high school anymore. I havent seen anyone from tv pro, no one I used to eat lunch with. I didnt know how this part of the future was going to be like back then but now that Im here and Im 19 and about to go to a for real actual college it sorta makes my head spin. Like I actually am doing something really good for myself and even though its such a independent and big step and im seriously freaked out, I cant waaaait. I mean, the whole institute is like a gigantic 5 hour a day tv pro class. Its crazy. Im really proud of myself that I actually took the initiative to get it done. I didnt think I was going to get around to it. I tend to put big things off and this is going to be the biggest nuttiest change my life has ever ever ever experienced. Im going to be in a completely different city, by myself, without anyone to lean on. No parents house, no best friends house, alone. Im not sure Im ready sometimes. I probably wont ever be.


Today when I was getting gas with Nate, a car pulled up to the pump on the other side of me, and funnily enough it was Tad and his gf. I freaked out because godddd hes everywhere. I just want to be on completely opposite dimensions as Tad so I never have to see him again. Ive literally had enough of him for one lifetime. gooo awaaaay